I read this article last night A Letter to LDS Wives About Pornography and found it to be tremendously helpful. I'm understanding addiction a little better every day and am (hopefully) becoming a better wife, mother, and friend because of it. Oh these hard life lessons!
Before we married he told me. We talked about it gently with no harsh words like pornography or addiction. I didn't understand, I don't think he did either, just how devastating this issue would become in our marriage. I remember the struggle in my heart as I contemplated ending our relationship. I felt hurt, betrayed, and disappointed, even then. I also remember choosing to love him in all his imperfection and hoping he would do the same for me.
I've thought about that choice so many times! I chose to love him then and I still do it today. He has this disease of addiction that may never go away. It's caused me more sorrow than I ever could have imagined. So I study, read, pray, and try to understand. I lean on the Atonement and move forward. One day at a time.
Please read that article. It really helped me and I think it will help you too.
All my love,
Elisabeth
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