I needed to set this aside for the holidays. Take a much needed vacation from the energy sucking world of addiction. And I’m not gonna lie. It was awesome! I focused on the holidays and a few old hobbies. Read some good books and spent time with the kids. Now the end of January is here and I need to pick this up again. I still feel like there’s work to do. For both of us.
Quick update - things are good. We started couple therapy a few months ago and I think it was helpful? Our therapist was great and I tried to be honest and kind in all that I said. There were two running dialogs going on. One in my head and the other out loud. The out loud one was exercising great restraint and the inside one was, well.. not so much. But we worked a few things out. I’m glad we went. Funny thing is, there wasn’t a lot to work out. Our problem is pretty cut and dry. He has an addiction that still rears it’s ugly head occasionally and I hate it with a fiery hate and wish it would die a quick, ugly, and painful death. I actually smiled and felt a little giddy as I wrote that. Like I said, we both still have some work to do.
